I’ll never forget the day I got called out.
The day my teacher said, “People pleasers are liars and perfectionists are cowards”.
The people pleasing part didn’t get to me, but the perfectionist part….
Instead of resisting the idea, I decided to think about how it might be true.
I remembered the year my best friend and I threw a killer Halloween party.
Amazing food, mind blowing decor, cool prizes, professional entertainment, the works.
It was good. Hollywood good.
I also remember the crazy amount of hours. The husbands coerced to take off work. The ruminating over details. The sleep deprivation. The children who went hungry.
Don’t get me wrong, the party was EPIC.
It was fun down to the last detail.
But I’ll never forget a friend’s reaction when I told her about all the energy that went into it.
She just said one word.
“WHY?”
At the time I laughed, because I didn’t really know what to say.
I wasn’t really ready to be honest with myself.
But now it’s crystal clear.
I wanted it to be perfect. I wanted to impress people. I wanted to hear the compliments. I wanted to show off the amazingness of ME.
That was then and this is now.
What I really want now is to show up without needing outside validation.
I just wanna be me.
I’m still a party animal.
But now I create intentional experiences for completely different reasons.
With the people that I love.
